{"id":145,"date":"2012-02-20T00:25:22","date_gmt":"2012-02-20T00:25:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kandynolesstevens.com\/?p=145"},"modified":"2012-02-20T00:25:22","modified_gmt":"2012-02-20T00:25:22","slug":"a-letter-to-my-son","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/?p=145","title":{"rendered":"A letter to my son"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>For the book contest give-away, please see the February 15 post.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/kandynolesstevens.files.wordpress.com\/2012\/02\/reedhuck.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-147\" title=\"reedhuck\" src=\"http:\/\/kandynolesstevens.files.wordpress.com\/2012\/02\/reedhuck.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"336\" height=\"380\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/02\/reedhuck.jpg 336w, http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/02\/reedhuck-265x300.jpg 265w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 336px) 100vw, 336px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Reed \u00a0\u2013 I can hardly believe four years ago at this hour, I was still trying to figure out where you were.\u00a0 No answers were coming, and my heart was frantic after seeing the story in another mother\u2019s eyes.\u00a0 Yet, I clung to the hope only found in Jesus that you were okay.\u00a0 I simply didn\u2019t (and still don\u2019t) know any other way to operate.\u00a0 And even though, Daddy and I (along with Sawyer, Erin, and Cloie) didn\u2019t receive the news we wanted, God still provides!\u00a0 He provides the blessings of friendships, memories, hugs, and sometimes more than anything else, rest.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>In these four years, we have tried our very best to remember and honor your most important legacy of loving God with all our hearts, souls, and minds.\u00a0 And I think that you would look down and smile at the ripples in the pond that your death created not only in our lives but in the lives of family, friends, and strangers.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Just to give you a quick update of those ripples:<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Many have shared that because of the faith of one sweet little redhead that they got right with God and are DEFINITELY going to see you in heaven now.\u00a0 (Even if we never know the full story this side of heaven, this news is incredibly comforting.)<\/li>\n<li>Your dog and best friend continues to touch the lives of others when he goes to visit friends at nursing homes.\u00a0 The love you poured into him through the countless hours spent together shows in the way he gingerly and tenderly gives back.<\/li>\n<li>The best friend who you spent most hours with is an awesome guy who I know you would still be proud to call your friend.<\/li>\n<li>The best friend who shared your faith is probably one of the most live out loud Christians I know and is also a tireless worker at Reed\u2019s Run.<\/li>\n<li>The best friend who shared your church has grown into the most amazing prayer warrior and quiet leader.<\/li>\n<li>Many other friends continue to share the difference that you made simply by being you, and now they, too, are making their own ripples.<\/li>\n<li>Your love of reading lives on in a reading program up north at a daycare we chose to adopt.\u00a0<\/li>\n<li>Your love of Star Wars is known far and wide.\u00a0 People still joke and laugh about your send off.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Things are not always rosy. But when we feel sad and blue, some sweet person will send us a tangible reminder of God\u2019s love, or we will hear that beautiful cardinal sing.\u00a0 It\u2019s then that we know that God is present in the here and now, and He is big enough to withstand our doubts, worries, and grief.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>When I look at your siblings, I am often reminded of the tangled web of emotions that you shared with each of them.\u00a0 Those unique relationships are the impetus of your legacy cheetah program.\u00a0 I can tell you that Sawyer\u2019s comedy routines have only gotten better with time, and that you would hate them (because he still gets big laughs around here).\u00a0 Erin has moved a long way past her first days of learning to shoot hoops.\u00a0 She no longer has a \u201cLaura, Mary, Carrie wind-up\u201d to just be able to get the ball through the hoop.\u00a0 And yes, we still cheer just as loud as we did back in the driveway with the \u201cIngalls\u201d girls.\u00a0 And Cloie, oh Reed, you would not believe how much of you is a part of her.\u00a0 Her passion for learning and her heart for loving others are identical to yours.\u00a0 She even has your penchant for opening the wrong side of the parmesan cheese.\u00a0 Oopsies!\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Reed time doesn\u2019t heal all wounds.\u00a0 Despite what some think, we have closed on houses and business deals, but we will never close on our children.\u00a0 With that said however, each and every day that we miss you, we know that God knows exactly what it is like to lose a Son.\u00a0 He knows our pain intimately.\u00a0 This past year we have decided as we bring a close to Reed\u2019s Run the theme will be \u201cTo rise from tragedy, cling to HOPE.\u201d\u00a0 Every day, we choose to do exactly that, knowing in heaven to\u00a0you\u00a0it will be a blink of eye when you see us again.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Always proud to be your momma! 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