{"id":518,"date":"2012-10-15T15:23:04","date_gmt":"2012-10-15T15:23:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kandynolesstevens.com\/?p=518"},"modified":"2012-10-15T15:23:04","modified_gmt":"2012-10-15T15:23:04","slug":"a-letter-to-my-little-girl","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/?p=518","title":{"rendered":"A letter to my little girl"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>Dear Savannah Kate:<\/p>\n

Hey Katydid!\u00a0 It has been a while since I had a chance to write specifically to you.\u00a0 Just because I don\u2019t write or talk about you, Timothy, and Noah as much as Reed, Sawyer, Erin or Cloie doesn\u2019t mean that I love you any less.\u00a0 In fact, there are some days that I just plain miss the things that I never got to experience with the babies I carried, but did not hold.<\/p>\n

I wanted to write to you because this past weekend I missed you so much that my heart literally ached.\u00a0 Your oldest cousin, Derek, got married to the love of his life, Jeannette.\u00a0 When it was time for family pictures, one was taken with the cousins, I had to step away.\u00a0 Daddy saw me sobbing, and he didn\u2019t have to ask.\u00a0 He just knew that it was because in my imagination I could picture all seven of my children posing (okay, most likely hamming it up) in that picture.<\/p>\n

Katydid, your twin sister was the flower girl.\u00a0 She looked adorable in her dress, but it was her bouncing curls that had me mesmerized.\u00a0 I often wonder how similar the two of you would be.\u00a0 Does your hair curl just like hers? Or do you have red curls like your namesake while Cloie has dark curls like hers? Do you love superheroes and fighting evil villains just like she does?\u00a0 Would you giggle the same or be as mischievous?\u00a0 Do you sing as beautifully?\u00a0 (On that last one, I use my dreams to believe you sparkle and shine in the heavenly chorus.)\u00a0\"\"<\/a><\/p>\n

At the wedding reception and dance, the broken places in my heart received some patching as all of us in Daddy\u2019s family pitched in to work, but more importantly to love together.\u00a0 Simply put, we had fun. Once the dance started, I had to stifle my giggles watching those bouncy curls as Cloie spun, twirled, and shimmied. The best was the ballroom dancing that she and Kimberly performed complete with big finishes at the end of the song.\u00a0 All the while those curls bounced, I kept thinking what the two of you would be like together.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t really care what other people say because I genuinely miss you.\u00a0 Tonight is the night that we get to remember you and the boys.\u00a0 Last year, I asked the other kids if they enjoy going to the October 15th<\/sup> candlelight remembrance or if it was a chore to them.\u00a0 Their response made me cry.\u00a0 Not only because it was sweet and humble, but more so that they \u201cgot it\u201d.\u00a0 Their unified response was summed up by Sawyer.\u00a0 \u201cMom, we all have birthdays and other special holidays just for us kids.\u00a0 This is the one day a year that we have special for Noah, Tim, and Savannah; so, no it isn\u2019t a chore, but more so an honor to remember our siblings this day each year.\u201d<\/p>\n

So tonight, Katydid, for the annual October 15th<\/sup> National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Candlelight Remembrance we will be lighting candles in memory of you three babies.\u00a0 Even though we never met you, you and the boys made a difference in this world . . . even if that difference was to change our hearts so that we could help others.<\/p>\n

I love you always, sweet girl, and someday in Heaven, I can\u2019t wait to hold you.<\/p>\n

Love, Momma<\/p>\n

Note: For more information on today, please visit www.october15th.com<\/a><\/p>\n

My family and I will be remembering at a special service hosted annually at our church.\u00a0 Please contact me, if you would like more information.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Dear Savannah Kate: Hey Katydid!\u00a0 It has been a while since I had a chance to write specifically to you.\u00a0 Just because I don\u2019t write or talk about you, Timothy, and Noah as much as Reed, Sawyer, Erin or Cloie doesn\u2019t mean that I love you any less.\u00a0 In fact, there are some days that […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[143,274,371,380,402,418,437,455,635,651],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/518"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=518"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/518\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=518"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=518"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.realsweetgrace.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=518"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}